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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 23:51

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

We all went to grammer schools

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I was very sick at this time too.

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She was in good health!

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All the time i was locked up.

Comes on , in middle age.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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She found it foreign!.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I was seconnd youngest,

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When she asked me how she looked .

He knew the spot.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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I said to her

I have no regrets .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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I will be 64.

It was going to be , some day.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

(And it was in our own minds.)

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Was to survive, this bastard.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Why did i forgive my father ?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My family never makes their pension either.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was 9 years of age.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I waited trembling.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But it wasn’t much.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My life is so biszare .

So whats the point in blame.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was scared of men, in general

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

One cannot live in the past .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Put me off passion for life!!

And i lived it daily.

I think the readers, may guess!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

What did i know ?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We were not on the streets..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As i do to all so called friends.?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But ive been too sick for many years..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She married twice! .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Would this be the day?

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I don,t even have a pension.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I never cut or harmed myself..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Im still living with it.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

This is soul school!.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I couldn’t, believe it.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

So, i spoilt her more .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She wouldn,t have been !

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Ive learnt so much.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She loved him until the end.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I write beautiful poetry .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But, we were locked up after school.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Who then, do I blame.?